Looking back on the year 2008

It is safe to say that 2008 was one of the turning point of my life where in before the end of the year my life and my world was really flipped upside down. I gained some and lost some as well as the year ended. I gained significant strides on my career but lost some people that I hold dear. It was I guess God's way of shaking things up for me to redirect me to the right path. Before I thought that what I have so far is because of my own hard work and perseverance. I seldom talk to God to thank him for all the blessings he gave me. But after what happened at the end of 2008, I began to have serious thoughts as to what has happened to my life so far and where am I heading? What have I accomplished so far after 27 years of existence? Then it hit me that all I have is because the Lord wants me to have them and He can take them away every time He wants to. That everything happened for a reason and that without Him my life would be meaningless. 

Now as 2009 begins, I realize that I have to be closer to the Lord than I ever had before. I must admit that I'm currently having some serious personal issues that are life altering and made me feel empty inside and I need to run to Him for help, to remove the bitterness, remorse regret and emptiness that I feel inside and for me to find peace as well. I’m not ashamed of that, but the feeling of having all the regrets, pain, anxiety, stress and problems lifted up to Him and telling Him to take control of my life and offer everything to Him was so liberating that I felt an inner peace inside me. These line of thinking saved me from certain insanity and depression and gave me new hope that everything will turn out for the best and that better days are still ahead with Him by my side.