Upon arriving at NAIA 3 on January 3 I went to Darell's apartment and we watched Up Dharma Down at Ride and Roll Katipunan. It was a good idea on my part because I needed time and something to do to get my mind off things that bothered my mind for the past 2 months. Man they were good. They played in a 10X15 meter room just enough for roughly 30 people to fit in including the band's equipments. I was just 3 feet away from their vocalist Armi Millari and I was sitting on the floor just in front of her keyboard holding a bottle of san mig light.hehe! Their music was so relaxing that it can give anyone renewed hope and somehow ease whatever pain, hopelessnes and dissappointment that I felt that day. I liked their music so much that I bought a copy of their CD "bipolar" the very next day. lol!
Then last January 11 I decided to buy my first book aptly entitled Moving forward by Dave Peltzer at Festival Mall-Alabang. My original plan was to buy "the purpose driven life" but sadly national bookstore doesn't have it anymore (I was able to borrow a copy of it from my friend anyway so at least I saved 600 - 800 pesos. hehe!) What caught my eye about this book is the fact that it tells you that "no matter how many mistakes we made, how badly we really, really screwed up; how old, worn out, or dejected we've become; as long as there is true steadfast ambition, all of us have an oppurtunity for greatness"-nice. Even if the price tag is a little steep I bought the book and upon reading the book I realized that I kind of like this new found hobby that my friends have been suggesting for the past couple of weeks. I was endlessly shifting through the pages even if I'm already on the bus going to Calamba!Now I'm almost finish with the book. I can tell you what the book is all about on my next post if the author will not sue me. hehe!
A week after that January 18 to be precise; I went to attend the CCF worship at St. Francis square at the back of megamall. I just went out with a couple of high school classmates the other night and only slept for almost 3 hours by the way, but I made a commitment to myself to attend the said worship. I was suppose to go to Valle Verde to attend a mass and hear for the first time Bro. Bo Sanchez talk live. (I occasionally watch him at TV five on Sunday) but I thought of trying to attend the CCF worship because it changed Renard's life (my 2nd cousin). It was worth giving a try to possible change mine as well. It was very good that I felt liberated and suddenly I felt light like all my problems, remorse, regret and guilt are suddenly lifted up from my shoulder. There were songs and dances and their pastor was very good that every word he said hit me right down to my very soul. I'm looking forward possibly next week to attend another CCF worship again. But I have to try and see Bro. Bo talk first.
It is still January but a lot has happened to me. I found closure, I found the will and the way to open up my own savings account (finally!!!), I'll find a way to repay my credit card debt, I found a new hobby (reading books and soon the bible-I'm going to buy one this weekend), I found peace in God (thanks to my friends who guided me when I was still in the dark) and in the process of making Him the center of my life, I subscribed to Kerygma and started reading them today and I took the first little step in trying to stop smoking by shifting from Malboro red to lights to lessen my nicotine and tar intake and listen my cigarette consumption by as much as 8 sticks a day. I'm ashamed of this vice but at least I'm trying to get rid of it. Like the saying goes "it all starts with one small step". My conviction as of this year is to create a new me for me with the help of the Lord. I do hope and pray that this year will be good to me and to my family and friends.
"Change for the better or for the worst is a choice!"
Then last January 11 I decided to buy my first book aptly entitled Moving forward by Dave Peltzer at Festival Mall-Alabang. My original plan was to buy "the purpose driven life" but sadly national bookstore doesn't have it anymore (I was able to borrow a copy of it from my friend anyway so at least I saved 600 - 800 pesos. hehe!) What caught my eye about this book is the fact that it tells you that "no matter how many mistakes we made, how badly we really, really screwed up; how old, worn out, or dejected we've become; as long as there is true steadfast ambition, all of us have an oppurtunity for greatness"-nice. Even if the price tag is a little steep I bought the book and upon reading the book I realized that I kind of like this new found hobby that my friends have been suggesting for the past couple of weeks. I was endlessly shifting through the pages even if I'm already on the bus going to Calamba!Now I'm almost finish with the book. I can tell you what the book is all about on my next post if the author will not sue me. hehe!
A week after that January 18 to be precise; I went to attend the CCF worship at St. Francis square at the back of megamall. I just went out with a couple of high school classmates the other night and only slept for almost 3 hours by the way, but I made a commitment to myself to attend the said worship. I was suppose to go to Valle Verde to attend a mass and hear for the first time Bro. Bo Sanchez talk live. (I occasionally watch him at TV five on Sunday) but I thought of trying to attend the CCF worship because it changed Renard's life (my 2nd cousin). It was worth giving a try to possible change mine as well. It was very good that I felt liberated and suddenly I felt light like all my problems, remorse, regret and guilt are suddenly lifted up from my shoulder. There were songs and dances and their pastor was very good that every word he said hit me right down to my very soul. I'm looking forward possibly next week to attend another CCF worship again. But I have to try and see Bro. Bo talk first.
It is still January but a lot has happened to me. I found closure, I found the will and the way to open up my own savings account (finally!!!), I'll find a way to repay my credit card debt, I found a new hobby (reading books and soon the bible-I'm going to buy one this weekend), I found peace in God (thanks to my friends who guided me when I was still in the dark) and in the process of making Him the center of my life, I subscribed to Kerygma and started reading them today and I took the first little step in trying to stop smoking by shifting from Malboro red to lights to lessen my nicotine and tar intake and listen my cigarette consumption by as much as 8 sticks a day. I'm ashamed of this vice but at least I'm trying to get rid of it. Like the saying goes "it all starts with one small step". My conviction as of this year is to create a new me for me with the help of the Lord. I do hope and pray that this year will be good to me and to my family and friends.
"Change for the better or for the worst is a choice!"
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